Mouse
Novice
hey its Broken angel i changed my name since i am on the healing time
Posts: 97
|
Post by Mouse on Mar 15, 2006 18:16:48 GMT
HI me agin hey i guess use will be sick of me by know sorry honestly BUT
I told a 'friend' a deep secret i will say it here I am Bisexual right i told her and they told everyone else and its a 'rumer' now i do not answer if i do i deni it becuase i did not want my school to knwo it would just turn them against me more cause tehy are rasist and sexist even thought they say they are not. I am proud of what i am but i would be battered everyday about it no matter what. I want to scream YES I AM but i can't casue i would be sent to my guidence teach they'd test me again for depression or sopme other thing where i get sent somewhere probaly a mental home. And they will try to change me my Nan says she would not care if i ama lesbian but she will if i am between and that i am to young to know. Use would say that to probaly but i have known since i was 11 two years ago but i can't say can i? AHHHH I'm confussed
Luv Broken Angel ( METAL MOUSE )
|
|
|
Post by watershield on Mar 15, 2006 18:58:17 GMT
First off, no we are not tired of you yet... ;D
Second, just because you think someone is a Friend, don't be telling deep secrets. it's been my experience, the deeper the secret the more your friend needs to share it with the world.
As to being Bi, well don't be so sure. You are fairly young and your body is changing. Your generating all kinds of hormones that affect not just our bodies, but our emotions and thought processes. One of the ladies here (I hope) will join in on this but from raising my daughters, most young girls go through a stage of "curiosity". (Guys do to, but it affects us with becoming aggressive, fighting and such.) I wouldn't worry about it nor would I decide just yet that the way it going to be in 5 or 10 years.
|
|
|
Post by Ebony on Mar 15, 2006 20:57:04 GMT
Hey sweetie, no, we are not tired of hearing from you. That IS what this board is for.... Although WS is a man, he is correct in that girls, and boys, go through that rough period when our hormones and our bodies are changing. WS gave you his male perspective, so I will give you a woman's perspective. It may have been a LOOONNGGGG time ago since I was a teenager, but not so long ago that my daughter was a teenager. And now my granddaughter will be going through the same thing in a couple years. So.... It does not mean you are a lesbian, bi-sexual, or not normal if you find yourself attracted to females at this time in your life. I can believe you are also attracted to the boys, otherwise you wouldn't say you believe yourself to be bi-sexual. I am, and was also in Jr High and High School, a physical contact person. I liked to give hugs. I was once called a lesbian because I hugged my female friend. The boys that saw were bullies to begin with, and I was naive and didn't know what the term meant. I was horrified when I found out! The whole school seemed to be laughing at me and calling me horrible names. But I figured out that the less I reacted, the quieter they became. I was no longer fun for them; the game was over. I assure you that once your hormones settle down, you will probably have a change of mind on the subject. Once you start dating in a few years, seriously dating, you will probably see that you are only sexually interested in the males you know. BUT, if you are still attracted to only women, or both, then that's ok too. AND, as WS said, STOP telling all these so-called-friends of yours that have, and continue to, hurt you, your inner thoughts and feelings!! If you feel the need to unload, that's what we are here for. If you can't talk to your mum, a teacher, councilor, at least ask US before spouting something to your friends. Talk about superficial things, but not your innermost secrets. We are here to offer our advice and give our friendship
|
|
Mouse
Novice
hey its Broken angel i changed my name since i am on the healing time
Posts: 97
|
Post by Mouse on Mar 16, 2006 16:53:42 GMT
Thnaks thanks thanks but one thing
i was an early start teh female half no what i am on about and has settled down yeah i no it will probaly change as time gose on i will sway to one side and i think i no which, i may be young but most time i act liek i am 18 19 older than i am maturer cause i ad to grow up fast(don't ask) and have done seriouse dating(don't ask ) he was older and mature (don't wanna go in to it) and i dunno my mind my heart my love just sees both cause of one guy mostly girls but hey... I thought i could trust them i told them now i'm getting the naems and it settles for a bit then gose up with a roar againand setles
use are realy going to be sick of me soon lol.... SO BAD MY LIFE i think i will stop coming and posting....i'm suck a neusence... and i wanna be a lawyer oh F**K
|
|
|
Post by Ebony on Mar 17, 2006 0:38:45 GMT
NO!NO!NO!Don't do that! We want you here ;D You are a part of us and we would feel tremendous pain at loosing you
|
|
|
Post by watershield on Mar 17, 2006 1:00:40 GMT
Hey BA There is no way you are going to just go away. Your family now girl and I for one look forward to your updates And I'm still waiting for you to figure out how to post a vid so I can see you dance!
|
|
|
Post by aaron20 on Mar 17, 2006 7:21:51 GMT
I don't think anyone wants you to go away. While we haven't met in r/t v/t can be very powerful. Especially if it's your one way of getting things off your chest and open things. So please . Hey, I'm in the alternative route as well. I'm not gay or bi I'm into D/s. takes alot of nerve to even come out and say it. My friends and I were all interested in it. Even if didn't say it. I'v got the most knowledge so I'm kinda the teacher. It's hard to come out and say things. Especially sexuality. I know people two girls were my friends that acted like they were a couple. Was funny as heck!!!!! OMG the fun it was to see the preps and the freshman litterally drooling. Society wise as far as guys go having a bi chick as your g/f is cool. I remember in high school kinda was a thing. But. you are still young. how old are you? If I may ask? if you'r a lower classman you may change. If upper then that is cool. Either way. As far as secrets? It's always hard to keep ANY secret in high school. I had people that were litterally firends one week and the next wanted to kill me. School was tough. I say though let 'em know. Tell them. It's not as bad as being me or a gay man or bi man. Society can handle women that like other women either totally or some what. There are alot of people and female's that lives are hell. Litterally hell. It maybe a different thing but I KNOW for sure they are the same type of pain. The only way to get past the pain is to understand and try and get above it. It's NOT an easy road it's hard and it's long and there will be pain..but it's well worth it. I'd rather be where I am now then be back as that shell. -shivers- Never want to end up there again. But, if you read this know this. As a person that isn't mainstream and isn't what is PC and living my life for "God" or a good "Christian"..I understand the fear and the scarryness of it. I get that. But, for the most part alot of people do understand and they will accept you. Alternative world's come along long long way from where it was. Finally I think we are being seen as not the crazy pycho person that is out to kill the straight person. but, as a person that has feelings and not out to hurt or kill or make you bleed or what not. It's a great time. Even though here in America there some that want us to be second class citizens. But, then again they want other religions too under that. Even if you'r not sure and your a teen. I'd say explore it. It's a part of you. you'r sexuality is your own. If they don't get it nor understand it and they want to hate on you forget it...find other's that are cool iwth it. They weren't your friends to begin with and your better off with out them. Besides you probably will have those thoughts and what not until you do check it out. I also would say do it wisely and be protective of yourself. Once you get into the world of alternative and kink and what not there can and are people out here to harm you. Yes those stories are true...but there are good people. Don't worry though. you'r going to get to a level of love and understanding they couldn't even dream about nor touch.
|
|
silenced not logged in
Guest
|
Post by silenced not logged in on Mar 17, 2006 13:18:21 GMT
Hi Broken Angel,
I am bisexual myself so i've been where you are now. I was brought up in a small english village though.
You are probably right to keep quiet at school, but you may well find there are youth groups, clubs, etc reasonably local to you where you can be yourself and meet other LGBT people in the same boat.
google for gay+(name of your nearest town) and I bet you will find events and stuff locally where you can meet others and not feel so isolated.
If you'd like me to help you look on the net or if you just want to chat you are welcome to PM me.
These annoying school years will soon pass and you will have a brill life of your ownxxxxx Love
silenced
|
|
|
Post by aaron20 on Mar 17, 2006 14:32:16 GMT
Oh an awesome place for alot of Alternative minded people is theatre and also paintings. Creative outlets I'd say a big percentage are alternative minded people. In some form of alternative lifestyles. So -smiles- just to let you know. Didn't know if knew that. I was in theatre and there was 3 or 4 people that were bi or gay. It's not bad and it'll pass all the hatred and what not. Honestly I think the way that it is these days will soon die down.
|
|
|
Post by watershield on Mar 17, 2006 16:11:35 GMT
Despite best intentions, some times it's best to keep the discussion on the board, especially when talking with a minor.
While we can not control the off board communications, I feel compelled to point out that there are risks involved for both parties. Face to face meetings are highly discouraged.
While someone can register and post as a 16 year old girl, she may in fact be a 35 year old male with ulterior motive. The same holds true for the responder.
I do not mean to offend anyone or imply any wrong doing, only that this is the internet and anything is possible.
|
|
Mouse
Novice
hey its Broken angel i changed my name since i am on the healing time
Posts: 97
|
Post by Mouse on Mar 17, 2006 17:09:28 GMT
Watershield i do no what you are saying and silence i will be fine thanks its hard i know but we have pounch bags in school now so no more self harm lol
I am 13 just so ya know but i am old for my age you might not understand that but i do. In my old household i was like a slave not aloud a childhood cause my Mother was a f**ken lazy cow and i was never aloud out cause of abuse in teh street from an older boy. When i was 5 it was liek i was 10 and so on n/m it wired and same with teh sexuality thing. Problem with teh group things never ever my age group.
Okay Okay i am not leaving i could not use give such good advice lol I am confussed but i will wait till i am older in age not in mind and body
and if anyone understands that then GO YOU
|
|
|
Post by aaron20 on Mar 17, 2006 18:55:24 GMT
Well 13? That is pretty young and I'd have to say that things could change. Although I wouldn't really worry about them. If they do they do..if don't ..they don't. Although maybe trying to find a few open minded people as far as things go would be best. Even if you live out in the sticks and a small town there are open minded people. I never did hang out with those that were I guess those that couldn't open there minds to things. That is what I'd say. You'r also going to go into high school and those years definetly change you as a person and will change your friends and all of that. You'll be different in some ways and same in others. Just a part of life. Although I'm pretty sure only time you'r concious of it though.
|
|
|
Post by Ebony on Mar 18, 2006 9:28:31 GMT
Angel you seem to be getting a lot of advice. Take what works for you and let the rest go. Just be careful to protect yourself in all things and at all times. luvs
|
|
Mouse
Novice
hey its Broken angel i changed my name since i am on the healing time
Posts: 97
|
Post by Mouse on Mar 18, 2006 11:32:49 GMT
sorry aaron20 i am going to correct you i am in high school already
Thank you i will.
|
|
|
Post by seleena on Mar 21, 2006 15:10:24 GMT
I agree, WS, with what you said. I know that most people have your best interest at heart, but please don't PM anyone off site. I would hate to see you get hurt, BA. Please keep posting. You are family and we are here to help. I can remember feeling old at your age for many different reasons. You can be old in some ways and very young in others. I can remember being attracted to boys and girls. I am not anymore, however, I can remember what it felt like. I look back and realize that I wasn't as "old" as I thought at that age, just in some areas - especially sexually because of being abused.
Don't worry about your sexuality. You will figure it out. If you are bi, so what. One of my best friends is and I love her like a sister. IT doesn't matter. Your true friends won't care. The ones that won't be friends with you because of it, weren't your friends in the first place.
Be strong, we are still waiting to see you fly in video. :-)
|
|