Post by py on Nov 20, 2006 13:44:49 GMT
I have to release this and i guess here is as good a place as any....ok here goes...This is my 3rd try into alchoholic recovery, and tho i have almost made it to 3 years without a drop(jan7 will be the pivitol 3rd year) i have to say i partake in another habit that those of AA would not approve of....i feel bad when i go to sites and say i am sober but i am not clean....I dont tell this to everyone and sometimes i wonder if i am fooling myself and getting away with something, but i know as long as i dont drink i am ok...that is what i had the problem with to begin with...I dont go to AA metings and i dotn participate in AA because i dont agree that thier way is the only way...yeah i may not be clean but i am SOBER!!
i went to another site for help with a small problem and was told that if i didnt do the steps and work the program it is my fault and that they cant help me unless i do it that way...it makes me angry and sad but i had to release this because i feel so guilty to say i am sober but i am not clean....sigh....goddess help me...
PY
i went to another site for help with a small problem and was told that if i didnt do the steps and work the program it is my fault and that they cant help me unless i do it that way...it makes me angry and sad but i had to release this because i feel so guilty to say i am sober but i am not clean....sigh....goddess help me...
PY