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Post by py on Dec 7, 2006 13:35:45 GMT
Been going to all these sites and trying to learn and study my craft...i joind a site sympatheitic to pagans who are recovering from addicitons....i know i have to unleash this, i feel the anger festering, because i dont 'do as they do' my words have no meaning .....i was basacally told the sickness that i know i have , i dont have...i am not a alchoholic i was told...because i dont work the steps or work in the program i am not really an alchoholic...i feel alone with my thoughts and feelings because i dont follow the same path they do....i have never put down the'program' it work for my boyfriend but not for me...but because of that i get told that i am not really an alchoholic...i am hurt and alone....
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Post by watershield on Dec 7, 2006 16:51:06 GMT
To acknowledge that we have problems is a step. If it's not THE steps outlined by the AA program, so what.
The question is, are you able to deal with temptation by your self?
If you can cut out all alchohol, don't have any temptations or need excusses to drink, well, maybe your not an alchoholic. But that's a good thing
If the opposit is true however, well then maybe you need to look at soom professional help for those weaker moments.
While I'm in a different time zone, I'm here to talk if you need me
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Post by py on Dec 7, 2006 20:21:35 GMT
Thank you....for your response...I am an alcholic...all i have to do is remember back 3 4 5 6 years ago...i know what i am, i suppose this is the low self esteem of mine that makes me worry so much what others say....i just really wanted to be apart of this group but i seemed to get slapped in the face at every turn there... i do have temptations, but i sidestep them, i work in a restraunt where liquor is sold, but i dont hang out with those who drink, i dont go to the liquor store when the restraunt needs to stock up, and i only work days to alleviate that urge i might get....but its not even that, its a will and a desire to stay sober and not fall into the same way...i am not saying it wont happen, but i am trying my derndest to make sure it doesnt happen... i just feel that its wrong(even tho thats all you know) is to basacally tell them they arent real because they dont do what you do....
i appreciate the outstretched hand watersheild, its nice to come here and get this off my chest...i just wont be posting on that site anymore.....lot of soul searching needs done i think...
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Post by watershield on Dec 8, 2006 11:15:14 GMT
Sounds like you have a handle on the problem. And I do wish you every success
I understand what alchoholism is, my Dad died with a pickled liver when he was 53. I'm 56 and have had my share of self questioning and "drying out".
You can always catch me here or email direct at scorpion.business@shaw.ca
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Post by py on Dec 10, 2006 15:54:57 GMT
thanks alot for extending a hand...i have had time to think about it and read my cards over it and i basically need to acknowledge my acomplishments and dont let a little thing get to me...I know what I am and i am learning who i am .... py
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Post by Ebony on Dec 11, 2006 6:07:37 GMT
Sounds like you are doing things right as far as living your life free from drinking alcohol.
Some forums become "clicky" very quick. If not part of that click, forget any kind of acceptance.
Please don't get discouraged because a group of uncaring people, that don't even know you, blow you off on a website. You are a very valuable part of the Universe, and there are people in cyberspace that do care about you.
You have my blessings, and I'm sending you healing energy for strength and continued will power in controlling your addiction.
Many Blessings ~
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Post by py on Dec 11, 2006 20:59:47 GMT
THANK YOU !!! for caring, it makes me feel good...hugz and bright blessings
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Post by Ebony on Dec 25, 2006 5:13:55 GMT
Just checking in -- how are you doing py?
I hope you are having a wonderful Yule Holiday
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Post by Verminda Spirit on Jan 3, 2007 12:45:38 GMT
My thoughts are with you dear one, know that we are here day or night~
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Post by py on Jan 4, 2007 13:31:39 GMT
Thank you Ebony, I am doing well, i am approaching my 3rd year in my sobriety, and the funny thing is a sister site to the site i was talking about the question wasa asked of me, from the same person, if i was getting excited about my upcoming anniversary, against my inner feeling of wanting to lash out"i thought i wasnt an alchoholic??!!" i answered honestly and was treated well, made me feel a little better, but when i went back and posted a quick 'gentle reminder' so i wouldnt getted kicked off the forum(you know housekeeping stuff) not one person bothered to reply, (except the admin.saying to make sure i post on my anniversary date)..i wanted to belong to this group. not sure why, but i find alot more friendship in sites that arent geared toward recovery funny ow that works...
so anyhow in my process to coming here to vent i see that you all DO care and in answer to your question i am doing well, my new years resolution is to stay sober, and learn more about witchcraft so i can incorperate it into my life and maybe gain some much needed self esteem and insite into myself..... i hope you all had a wonderful yule and new year, and brightest blessings to all of you here for a prosperous and happy 2007!!!!
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Post by Ebony on Jan 5, 2007 3:45:14 GMT
I am glad to know you are doing alright. And a big congratulations on 3 years!! I know you will succeed for the rest of your life. I am keeping you in my prayers and sending healing energy to you.
Blessings~
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Post by watershield on Jan 5, 2007 8:55:16 GMT
Three years is a fantastic achievement, congratulations to you.
If you want to ask any questions on the craft, I'm sure most people who come here would be willing to assist you. You can also have a look at the "Links" section for some very friendly sites
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Post by catrina on Jan 24, 2007 18:29:16 GMT
Sounds like you are doing things right as far as living your life free from drinking alcohol. Some forums become "clicky" very quick. If not part of that click, forget any kind of acceptance. Please don't get discouraged because a group of uncaring people, that don't even know you, blow you off on a website. You are a very valuable part of the Universe, and there are people in cyberspace that do care about you. You have my blessings, and I'm sending you healing energy for strength and continued will power in controlling your addiction. Many Blessings ~ Its so true about other sites being very clicky.. You are made to feel stupid and ignorant.. Its them that are ignorant and RUDE. Catrina
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Post by py on Dec 28, 2007 21:41:07 GMT
Just checkin in ....i came here to vent again...i love this place....I have been really busy starting back at college...(intermediate algebra, I passed with a C...YAY)I finally got my divorce and am getting ready to get bought out of my share of the house, my daughter is truning 13 in a few days, I am with the most remarkable lovely man...i am free to do as i please...getting ready for my 4th year sober...and learning alot about my craft....I was mad at myself today for flying off the handle at work (like a child) and i stopped in here to vent...But i was reading this post i made and i wanted to update my 'friends' here...i am not doing so badly...just had a rotten feeling day...I wonder if it is something that i pray to godess on? to help me with trivial feelings and get over how i look to others? i feel soo good about alot of things...just still working on other things...insecurities.... anyhow thank you all of you for being here and thank you Vee!! for having a place for us to be!!
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Post by watershield on Dec 29, 2007 22:18:36 GMT
It never hurts to pray about anything. I am pleased for you, things sound like they are working out very well indeed. Everyone has some rough spots...thats life. Think of them as waves and ride them for all their worth.....
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